DO. FEEL. BE. Myself.
Welcome to the delightful process of completing a legal name change and all the quirky side-quests that result from this decision. In this post, I'm writing about what happens next and information on how/who to notify once the legal name change is in effect. For information on my journey to the legal name change and... Continue Reading →
"Rushing, rushing, rushing around" is how I feel lately. So many things to coalesce into something tangible that I can grasp, like what am I doing at this point where I'm out of my 20s and seeing the rest of my life ahead of me like the peak of a roller-coaster right before it hurtles... Continue Reading →
"You know, you can over-think things until the cows come home..." a slightly nasally voice said, a hint of frustration bleeding through. "I'm not Hindu," I said, with attempted humor. "What?" snapped the frazzled marketer. "I said, I'm not Hindu." The smile slipped slowly off my face. Saturdays have become a wonderful hideaway representing freedom... Continue Reading →
"Memory is a curious thing. It can be beautiful if you let it, hurt you if you let it, destroy you, if you let it. It's all about power and where you put it. Do you put it in the hands of that person you knew, who said those things way back when, who used... Continue Reading →
Ego Death - Complete destruction of all you perceive to be "you". Recognizing that all or a significant factor of "yourself" is false. Reevaluating "your" self or life or progress. Inspired by Aun Aqui's "My Sweet, Stupid Car". "Burning paper plane crashing" --- Image by © C.J. Burton/Corbis I must be an idiot. So fucking stupid! ... Continue Reading →
Everyone down on the floor. No sudden moves, and lock the door. I've got this feeling I'm chasing. I'll never rest, until I find it. But I've been plotting away, in my heart everyday; To put this plan into action. And though I tried to resist, I find the thing is this; Until I get... Continue Reading →
Dissociation leads to isolation Isolation leads to hate I hate the dull February Where happy thoughts drown with sadistic glee Into the depression of the gray February 6, 2016 Attending a mixer at work, I found myself floundering for introduction. "Hi, nice to meet you! My name is _____." "___? Nice to meet you I... Continue Reading →
ICU - intensive care unit ICU - (slang) I see you But nobody does. And no one can fix it. "You aren't as [fucked up] as you think you are." Yeah,... Continue Reading →
Part 1 It's realizing that you have to use the masks. Use the masks but Don't let them deceive you -when others wear them, When you wear them. Don't lie to yourself, don't let them lie To you. It's funny, You spent a life wearing a mask To protect yourself. Then you strove for honesty, A trait... Continue Reading →
Rather than the (un)usual format of vocalized conversation with you, I wrote a series of journal entries that better encapsulates my debrief. With all sorts of weather in the western and eastern hemispheres, I figured I'd respect your availability and write to you, rather than demand you come for a "physical" coffee meeting as per... Continue Reading →
DO. FEEL. BE. 