“I” burn it down.
Smoke, never so captivating
As when it curls in my nostrils,
Tickles my lips.
I take it in, inhale the joy
The filament a lingering figment,
Till my lungs collapse.
A caress deeper than love,
A kiss thrust into my brain;
Gently pushing me under the waves.
I take it in, something attempting
To hold my soul,
To love something…
Connecting to a concept
Seems impossible without you
To smooth my edges and keep “me” steady
I swear I need it just as much as it needs me,
I swear I smoke it just to be free,
I promise that this is the end
The end that never ends,
I disappoint everyone and myself
I cannot open my eyes and be sane.
My brittle focus continues to beguile me,
I love the crystals even more;
They whisper that “I” can stop… tomorrow
The vivid memories I just want to drown,
I slay my demon with a pipe;
Only for it to resurrect tomorrow
Everyone is always too busy,
Too busy to rescue me;
So I tide myself to shore
Questioning my methods,
Never too busy to judge and prove me wrong;
Save it, I’m just trying to save myself.
When has it ever been today?
“I” can’t remember.
Give me some time,
This time make it real;
Make “me” real.
“I” promise to try,
Based on emotions from Intervention S15 E07